My Ibogaine journey was profoundly shaped by the masculine energy it exuded. Unlike many psychedelics that offer fleeting insights, Ibogaine felt like an encounter with a higher power, handing down specific tasks for personal growth: “Examine this aspect of your life, discontinue this behavior, initiate that one.” These revelations not only aimed to enhance my own existence but also pointed towards a greater purpose that each of us might serve.

After undergoing an intense twelve-hour experience, I felt an urgent need for nourishment. It struck me that I hadn’t eaten during this arduous journey, and naturally, I craved food.

It's common to experience a hangover that leaves you both ravenous and repulsed by food. Coming out of my Ibogaine experience, I was starving yet lacked the appetite to eat. The mere thought of food was overwhelming.

One of the highlights of my time at Beond was the exceptional quality of the food. Compared to the culinary disappointments often found in the U.S., where even fine dining can be subpar and overpriced, Beond offered fresh, locally sourced meals that were genuinely delightful. Each meal became something to eagerly anticipate, with the staff accommodating various dietary needs.

Upon leaving the treatment area, I was ushered to a space meant for rest, where I could request nearly anything. I opted for something light that I could manage to eat. The fruit was exceptional; throughout my stay, I indulged in an array of fruits that tasted incredible. Under the influence of Ibogaine, I savored the best fruit of my life—pineapple, strawberries, and various melons melting in my mouth. I felt a deep sense of satisfaction from just a few bites, a sensation I hadn’t experienced in years.

This profound satisfaction blossomed into a feeling of optimism about the future, despite my exhaustion. I recognized that this optimism stemmed from being present and unattached to future outcomes. At fifty, I had been preoccupied with my life’s achievements and the trajectory ahead, focusing on material successes that defined my worth—possessions, wealth, status.

We are constantly bombarded with messages from advertisements that shape our perceptions of success and happiness, leading us to pursue possessions in a misguided quest for fulfillment. This ongoing cycle has a significant impact, particularly on a subconscious level. I began to see the influence these messages had on me.

I realized that I had become a product of these constant messages and influences, which dictated how I measured my own happiness and success. However, I was not ready to abandon my material possessions entirely.

Through my Ibogaine experience, I understood how absurd my attachment to these material successes was. I had yearned for them, but the journey illuminated their frivolity. While I had heard this perspective before, experiencing it firsthand was transformative. Once you truly see, it’s hard to revert to ignorance.

Life is finite, and the possessions we cling to will eventually belong to others. Our homes, cars, and valuables will change hands, often ending up with strangers. This raises the question: why do we place so much importance on these transient possessions?

What I gained was more than mere insight; it was as if the incessant longing and desire within me were silenced. Ibogaine rewired my brain, awakening a curiosity about life’s sensory, psychological, and spiritual offerings. I learned to appreciate the simple pleasures often overlooked in the relentless pursuit of fleeting successes.

Ibogaine has a unique ability to rewire neural pathways in the brain, essentially rejuvenating it. It acknowledges the years of mental conditioning and opens new pathways that allow us to utilize our knowledge without the constraints of previous limiting beliefs.

It’s wisdom. It’s a practical method to manifest and apply wisdom in life.

So, where do I go from here?

Since returning from Cancun, I have not consumed any alcohol. Completing my Ibogaine journey eliminated any desire to drink. While I was never an alcoholic, I simply lost the urge to partake in it.

I’ve visited bars and restaurants since then, environments that typically encouraged drinking. In the past, I felt a strong desire to order a drink, but now, I find no inclination to do so. I miss the social aspects of drinking—the interactions and conversations enhanced by alcohol—but I don’t miss the drink itself.

I am learning to navigate social situations without the crutch of alcohol, which often serves as a double-edged sword. While it can ease social interactions, it also hinders genuine communication without the dulling effect of intoxication.

For many years, I struggled with a physical dependency on nasal inhalers. What began as a simple remedy for sinus relief turned into a daily necessity. I used these inhalers multiple times a day, believing I couldn’t breathe without them.

Since leaving Cancun, I have not needed to use one.

I don’t wish to generalize my experience; each person’s Ibogaine journey is unique. My experience helped me appreciate the intricate relationship between psychological and physical perceptions, and how they affect one another.

Whatever dependency I had formed with these inhalers over the decades was severed. The habitual triggers to use them were turned off, as was my psychological susceptibility to advertising and suggestion.

This is the remarkable power of Ibogaine.

In my opinion, Ibogaine represents a potential solution to the global drug epidemic. The saying goes, “When you’re desperate enough, you’ll try anything.” At the point of unbearable pain, individuals are often willing to explore any option for relief.

During my stay at Beond, many admitted they had exhausted all other avenues, standing on the brink of despair. They arrived in a state of emotional numbness but left with renewed energy and vitality.

It may take years, but Ibogaine holds promise for the future.

If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, PTSD, or psychological distress, traditional routes may not suffice. When you reach a point of desperation, be open to exploring Ibogaine as a viable solution.

This concludes the author's account of their Ibogaine experience.