Chapter 1: The Journey Begins

Recently, I took my bike out for a ride for the first time since relocating to a new town last month. While I won't delve too deeply into my past, my experience living with my parents for three years was filled with tension due to my father’s severe obsessive-compulsive disorder. Now, the freedom I have in my own space is absolutely liberating. However, the journey to get here has been incredibly difficult.

I vividly remember my first night alone at my parents' home. Lying in the spare bedroom, I stared blankly at the white ceiling, emotionally numb and overwhelmed. I longed for my children and felt paralyzed by anxiety about what lay ahead. The days dragged on painfully, while the nights were even more challenging. During the pandemic, I navigated through medical trade school, cherished every moment with my kids, and eventually managed to get through a day without feeling crushed when they were out of sight.

Three years later, I packed my children, guitars, and journals to embark on a fresh and thrilling journey, even though it felt unfamiliar. Describing the sense of relief and joy I felt at this moment is tricky, but I would liken it to a euphoric release that washes over you just before drifting into sleep or that exhilarating rush on a rollercoaster as it descends after a slow climb.

Section 1.1: The Joy of Independence

Having friends over without needing to consult my parents first is a luxury I now appreciate. Just last week, when a friend and her family came to visit, she asked if she could bring anything. "A plant!" I replied excitedly, and she did just that.

Subsection 1.1.1: The Weight of Past Experiences

I don’t harbor many enemies, but I would never wish the torment of my divorce experience on anyone, even if I did. As I pedal uphill on my bike, feeling the burn in my quadriceps and calves, I am reminded of the grueling three years we’ve all endured.

The process required effort, and some days, breathing felt like a monumental task. Yet, despite the struggles, growth is often steeped in pain, and healing is a challenging ascent. However, the exhilarating ride down the other side makes every hardship worthwhile.

Thank you for joining me on this reflective journey. ❤

Chapter 2: Healing and Moving Forward

The video titled "The Most Powerful Way To Start Healing Your Past & Building Your Future" by Joe Dispenza & Jay Shetty offers profound insights into personal growth and healing. It emphasizes the importance of letting go of past trauma to pave the way for a brighter future. This journey of healing, while challenging, is essential for true transformation.